I stepped outside today and saw a cloudless blue sky, sun blazing, heat beating down, and thought, "Wow, there's going to be a huge storm tonight, isn't there."
I have no idea how I knew. I just knew.
So when the lightning flashed jagged stripes through the sky hours later, I grinned welcomingly at it, watching out my window. Something about a wild storm makes me feel safe.
A few hours later I got up to go to the bathroom. As I got up, I hit the "play" button, taken with a sudden wanting to listen to the Angel theme song. It took a couple moments for the song to load, as I walked the few steps to the bathroom and sat down on the toilet.
The song starts with a two-bar intro of just a single cello, and then there's a barely-a-hair split second before those two bars get reiterated with the full band. In that split second I felt something strange deep in my skull, not painful or noisy, just strange. My hands went to my face, and then the song started in full-force, and then there was blood all over my hands and face.
The surreality of the cosmically precise timing froze me up in the pit of my stomach, which was also aptly timed as it would have done me no good to have a panic attack at that moment. I'm sitting on the toilet with my shorts around my ankles, vampire theme music blaring, and blood all over the place. I can't make this shit up. I swear to god it happened just like this or I wouldn't bother telling you about it.
I've had nosebleeds before, but not in a long time, and rarely without some discernible cause. That was what was terrifying me. Is, currently, now that it's over and I'm afraid to sleep. I have no idea why all that blood suddenly decided to come gushing out my nose, and for probably about ten or fifteen minutes there -- though of course it felt like hours and hours -- I had no idea if it were going to stop, or when. Usually I know what caused it -- I slept funny, I've been sick or sneezing a lot, I got punched in the face, it's about to be summer or winter, I've just experienced a dramatic altitude change -- but this time, all I can think is, something to do with the storm, or something to do with the dental work I had done yesterday. Neither of those give me the warm fuzzy feeling that it's over and won't happen again.
But now I'm too dizzy to be awake, and too scared to be asleep.
July 18 2010, 09:01:16 UTC 1 year ago
I have epilepsy and my seizures are triggered by temperature and colors/patterns. It always starts with a funny feeling in my skull like you described.
You're probably fine - it was probably a one-off thing, almost everyone experiences it at some point in their lives. If it happens again tho, get tested for epilepsy.
July 18 2010, 09:06:06 UTC 1 year ago
Yep...I would say it was the thunderstorm and it was probably a seizure.
July 18 2010, 23:30:03 UTC 1 year ago
Talk to your dentist.
July 29 2010, 01:58:42 UTC 1 year ago
how do you feel now?
aaahh!
July 29 2010, 01:59:37 UTC 1 year ago
July 29 2010, 03:46:49 UTC 1 year ago
and thank you, for being supportive to me, in my life, in my crazy insane times, you give the best advice.
lovelovelove*